Turning Tables

HELLO! Phew, haven't been blogging for so long!
I have thought about posting something before but always forgot. Lol!
So I'm here now :)
My dark skin has gotten even darker since that day when we took pictures in Cemara, sucks :( It'll be hell to whiten up again *sigh*

Valentine's has just passed you know. The official reminder to every single people on this world that you are SINGLE -.- Well, I'm always single on Valentine's. I changed boyfriend annually and we never made it to Valentine's. In fact, I don't think I've ever passed the New Year's Eve with a boyfriend. LOL!
I think it's due to my hot-headed, stubborn, hard-hearted nature. I'm very opinionated, so there's no changing if I'm set on something, I feel like I'm always right ._. This has proven to be quite the obstacle in my love life.
My last boyfriend has the exact same nature as I do. Oh wow, you can only imagine how our fights were. AK47s, Rocket Launchers, you name it. It's an all out war, no one really backed down. We're too stubborn for our own good. We fought for like every single day in our relationship. There's no day gone without a fight. Be it simple petty fights over trivial things or huge fights that always left us critically wounded. But you know, in the end, love made everything okay. We lasted 7 or 8 months, no one expected it, given our situation at time. But there were sweet memories too, you know, the kind that always resonated through your head when you decided that it's over, the kind that always made you think again before letting go. I think that's what kept us together that time. Fortunately, I moved on :)

You know, everytime I checked my timeline, there are always a couple of people who always tweet about their love life, or galau-ing, as they call it. I feel extremely grateful to know that I have no feeling for anyone at the moment. I don't crush on anyone, or like anyone so it's pretty much peaceful for me :D
Love is quite the strange thing you know. I wish I'd never fall in love, but love is so beautiful that you know you'll regret never experiencing it.
To tell the truth, I have never had a good love story. Those romantic, super sweet ones. Good guys just don't come for me, I think I attract guys of the same head as I do. Someone like me needed someone who will back down, who will let me win but not stepping over their head. Someone who can control my fires, not fight back with fire but the one who will splash water all over me. The soothing type. Never fallen for one.
I always fell for the bad ones. I wonder why -.-
Ah, perhaps it's not yet time for me. It's okay really. I view all the experiences as lessons. Not like I ever followed the lessons anyway :p





Ciao ♥