Galau-ing

Should be right around time to be galau-ing.
I don't feel anything anymore. I'm shocked that I actually took this long to realize that I don't deserve you. I deserve someone better, much better. And I'm grateful for all that had happened.
Just so you know, I'm not an honest one. I drop clues not hints. You see, both might seem similar--similar but not the same. Clues mean you need to collect them and find out the hidden truth, while hints are well, hints to whatever was inside, see what I mean? No? Well, don't blame yourself, I suck in storytelling or describing or anything, really!
So yeah, I am never gonna just come up to you and confess, that's just not me. I have many layers of dignity that even my own feelings won't be able to strip far. I'm stubborn and selfish with pride all over my head, I am so prideful that I don't like apologizing or admitting defeat. I am a winner, I thrive to be one, or at least I hope I could be one. You knew that, you must have known, we've been friends for so long. Did you pretend to not notice that? Did you act like you didn't know how I feel? Or what? Are you waiting for my confession? Don't hold on to it. Will never ever happen.
But now, I don't care anymore. I gave up long long time ago. This is a new book, a new beginning for me without you. I won't let you taint any page with your drama. I closed our chapter that time, and burned it recently.
I am pretty content with myself now. I have no lingering feeling for you or anyone for the matter and I feel free. At least I don't need to worry of whether you're gonna text or not, well, your blackberry is inactive at the moment. Anyway, this is not about my ex, although it may seem so. I got no feeling for my exes as well by the way. This is about a guy that has never been in a relationship with me even if we already looked like a couple.
Thanks for the memories. Farewell.







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