My bloody alarm rang at 10 in the freaking morning today and I wondered as I tried to haul my lazy ass off the bed, since when did I set an alarm to ring in 10 in the morning on a freaking holiday? Then it hit me straight away, oh my effing god, today is the second death anniversary of James Owen Sullivan, or The Reverend Tholomew Plague or The Rev.
Kinda sadden me you know. I really regret that time when Avenged Sevenfold came to Jakarta on one of their tours and I missed that. I begged and begged but my parents apparently think that going to Jakarta and a hard rock concert alone equal to suicide mission.In their mind, a rock concert is full of topless people who dyed and styled their hair with punk styles and huge bikes. Not really, you know. I mean, not all of rockaholics had that kind of look, I don't. But I somehow understand their position, they just don't want me getting in danger, but! I can take care of myself, hopefully. And not be stupid enough to get caught on a pit circle. Google up pit circle if you had no idea what it is.
Now, I think back and kinda feel remorse you know. If only I had begged harder, if only I can convince them.
Back then I would be able to watch them as a band, the real band they started as. No offense to Mike Portnoy, he is one of the greatest drummers alive, ex-drummer of Dream Theater, for your information. But still, can't really match up to The Rev you know :'(
Come back The Rev, it's almost easy. Gone but never forgotten. I hope you start your own bat country in the afterlife, complete with the beast and the harlot :')
foREVer ♥
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Saturday, December 24, 2011
You'll Find Yourself Floating Home
Okay. Pissed off.
First, of all the many things I hated, being called stupid is one of them. I might not be the brightest crayon in the box but the thing is, are you bright enough to call other people stupid? There is no one smart enough to call other people stupid. And gah! That really ticks me. Been through a lot of fights just because of this. I don't care if you're joking, well except if you're a very close friend, I still think it's very rude and inappropriate to say such things to someone.
And also, it's coming from someone who I barely knew, well he is only joking, maybe. But damn, it offended me. The only person who is allowed to call me stupid is myself. Only me.
Man, if I don't reply to your chats, might have been one of the following :
1. I'm very busy
2. I'm very lazy
3. You're very annoying
4. I hate you
5. You offended me
Use that dead-weight on your head, you usually refer to as a brain. Thank you very much for not bothering me again.
Off ♥
First, of all the many things I hated, being called stupid is one of them. I might not be the brightest crayon in the box but the thing is, are you bright enough to call other people stupid? There is no one smart enough to call other people stupid. And gah! That really ticks me. Been through a lot of fights just because of this. I don't care if you're joking, well except if you're a very close friend, I still think it's very rude and inappropriate to say such things to someone.
And also, it's coming from someone who I barely knew, well he is only joking, maybe. But damn, it offended me. The only person who is allowed to call me stupid is myself. Only me.
Man, if I don't reply to your chats, might have been one of the following :
1. I'm very busy
2. I'm very lazy
3. You're very annoying
4. I hate you
5. You offended me
Use that dead-weight on your head, you usually refer to as a brain. Thank you very much for not bothering me again.
Off ♥
Friday, December 23, 2011
Killjoys
First day of holiday! Yeah! Went to Sun today with the usual people. So much fun, talked about so many things \m/ Definitely must do it again! Unfortunately, Achen wasn't here to join us. Although he did join us yesterday at MBox, screaming our lungs out. the most memorable thing is probably when Ferdy sang Agnes Monica's Matahariku. The part when she goes "oohhh ohhh", he was really ... wild. The screamings were out of this world, baby. Lol.
We also went to Matador even if it was only for a short while. Really really great day.
About our inauguration party, okay, that really made me frustrated. But, we can pull it through. Hopefully.
So, sorry for the short post, gotta run.
Bye ♥
We also went to Matador even if it was only for a short while. Really really great day.
About our inauguration party, okay, that really made me frustrated. But, we can pull it through. Hopefully.
So, sorry for the short post, gotta run.
Bye ♥
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Holy Jolly Holiday
Hey! We got a day off today *cheers*
But we have to subjects due for test tomorrow. Which I haven't even touched at all.
Oh well, you're not here to read how bad I did and will do in my tests right?
Okay, since I got nothing else to post, and als I figured you must all be getting tired of my Cobus fever, I am going to post about the kind of boys I like. Lol. So corny and cheesy.
First off. He has to be taller than me! Not going for the short cute guys. Although we might work on cute. Lol. But really, has to be tall.
Secondly, not thin. I hate thin guys! They look so weak, like one of their hands is gonna fall of their hinges or something or like he's gonna fly away if the wind blew hard enough. Especially if they're a little hunched -.-
Third. Funny. Everyone loves a funny guy. Imagine that when you have problems, and then your boyfriend adds to the fray with his pessimism. Do you need another drama in your life?
Fourth and one of the most important things of all. Sports. I love sports, I mean, I love watching sports and I want to have a boy who I can talk about sports to. Also, football allegiance. For some, it might not mean anything. But, football allegiance ain't like clothes. You can't just change it in that instant if someone told you they don't suit you. And also those who watch football have a deep feeling of loyalty to the team they supported, so I don't think it will be fun if you know, he hates my team then every single time my team played, we will fight. I support Manchester United and I wanted someone who is in the same page as I do.
Fifth, also one of the most important stuffs. Music taste. Up until now, the only people with the same music taste as I do that I can find are my brother and a friend. I want to be able to talk about my music stuffs to this guy and really connect. But it might be hard since the bands I listen to are sometimes too metal for others.
Sixth, not being materialistic or anything, but I at least want someone who drives a car. Cause you know, it won't be nice if you're about to go on a date, you're all prepped up, nice and pretty, then you have to put on helmet and ride on a bike. Uh-huh. Not nice at all.
Seventh, I don't need him to be ultra handsome, but be at least, average.
Eighth, he needs to get my mother, brother and friends approval. Not counting in my father since he doesn't want me to be in a relationship.
So, this is probably the eight things that I look for in a guy. Up until now, the guys that really matched up to these criterias, not counting in football allegiance are Zacky Vengeance, Synsyter Gates and Cobus Potgieter.
Not really fair because Zacky and Syn are members of my favorite band so, they must have the same music taste as I am. But yeah, Cobus rocks! \m/
Off ♥
But we have to subjects due for test tomorrow. Which I haven't even touched at all.
Oh well, you're not here to read how bad I did and will do in my tests right?
Okay, since I got nothing else to post, and als I figured you must all be getting tired of my Cobus fever, I am going to post about the kind of boys I like. Lol. So corny and cheesy.
First off. He has to be taller than me! Not going for the short cute guys. Although we might work on cute. Lol. But really, has to be tall.
Secondly, not thin. I hate thin guys! They look so weak, like one of their hands is gonna fall of their hinges or something or like he's gonna fly away if the wind blew hard enough. Especially if they're a little hunched -.-
Third. Funny. Everyone loves a funny guy. Imagine that when you have problems, and then your boyfriend adds to the fray with his pessimism. Do you need another drama in your life?
Fourth and one of the most important things of all. Sports. I love sports, I mean, I love watching sports and I want to have a boy who I can talk about sports to. Also, football allegiance. For some, it might not mean anything. But, football allegiance ain't like clothes. You can't just change it in that instant if someone told you they don't suit you. And also those who watch football have a deep feeling of loyalty to the team they supported, so I don't think it will be fun if you know, he hates my team then every single time my team played, we will fight. I support Manchester United and I wanted someone who is in the same page as I do.
Fifth, also one of the most important stuffs. Music taste. Up until now, the only people with the same music taste as I do that I can find are my brother and a friend. I want to be able to talk about my music stuffs to this guy and really connect. But it might be hard since the bands I listen to are sometimes too metal for others.
Sixth, not being materialistic or anything, but I at least want someone who drives a car. Cause you know, it won't be nice if you're about to go on a date, you're all prepped up, nice and pretty, then you have to put on helmet and ride on a bike. Uh-huh. Not nice at all.
Seventh, I don't need him to be ultra handsome, but be at least, average.
Eighth, he needs to get my mother, brother and friends approval. Not counting in my father since he doesn't want me to be in a relationship.
So, this is probably the eight things that I look for in a guy. Up until now, the guys that really matched up to these criterias, not counting in football allegiance are Zacky Vengeance, Synsyter Gates and Cobus Potgieter.
Not really fair because Zacky and Syn are members of my favorite band so, they must have the same music taste as I am. But yeah, Cobus rocks! \m/
Off ♥
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Tribute
Okay! So I will be dedicating this post to Avenged Sevenfold since they're my favorite band EVAR! Lol.
Avenged Sevenfold is an American heavymetal rock band, formed in Huntington Beach, California in 1999, first appeared as a metalcore band with first album Sounding the Seventh Trumpet but evolved into a hard rock/heavymetal in their third album and the following. The name was a reference to the Book of Genesis from The Bible, although they are not a religious band.
So, Matthew Charles Sanders, stage name M.Shadows, lead vocalist. Born in Huntington Beach, California July 31, 1981. Founder of Avenged Sevenfold and was the one who suggested the band name. He was in a Catholic school when he was younger, therefore making him familiar with the Bible and a lot of their songs and albums were titled from the pages of Bible. He played piano when he was younger but took interest on guitar and rock musics instead, although he is still capable of plating the piano now. Rumors began to spread that Shadows has lost his ability to scream since his throat surgery during Warped Tour 2003 because their records' vocal changed from heavy metalcore screaming into a much more defined vocal. But their producer put down those rumors by saying "When I met the band after Sounding the Seventh Trumpet...Matt handed me the CD, and he said to me, 'This record's screaming. The record we want to make...is going to be half-screaming and half-singing. I don't want to scream anymore...the record after that is going to be all singing.'".
Brian Elwin Haner, Jr better known as Synyster Gates or Syn, lead guitarist. Born in Huntington Beach, California July 7,1981. He studied at the Musicians Institute in Hollywood as part of the Guitar Institute of Technology program, studying jazz and classical guitar. After a year or so of being there, he got a phone call from The Rev asking him if he wanted to join his band, as lead guitarist. Brian joined rather than continuing his education and becoming a studio musician. Up until that time he was primarily self-taught by watching music videos and reading books. He won numerous awards for his epic guitar skills. I really really loved his smile, and his guitar skills always makes me melt.
Zachary James Baker or Zacky Vengeance, rhythm guitarist. Born in Huntington Beach, California December 11, 1981. He taught himself how to play guitar and said that he took on Vengeance as his stage name for getting back at the people from his youth who doubted his potential. He also came up with the stage name of Johnny Christ for Jonathan Seward and the abbreviation A7X. Despite playing the guitar left handed (he is ambidextrous), Vengeance recalls the first guitar he learned to play on was actually a right-handed his parents had bought him for his thirteenth birthday. He learned by playing upside-down, watching his favorite bands and other people he knew who played, and practiced as much as he could. He would also read each edition of Guitar World cover to cover, learning the tabs of the songs published there and watching the professionals perform them until he could play just as well. He had a clothing line called Vengeance University and he has gorgeous eyes! It's a mixture of colors and it's just ... well, awesome.
Jonathan Lewis Seward, or Johnny Christ. Born in Huntington Beach, California November 18 1984. Johnny could pick up on the pace of a song that he did not know quite quickly and proved to be a very unique bass guitarist. "I don't think any one out there could pick up a bass line as quick as Johnny" were the words from The Rev. About the Christ in his name he said "That sounds... really ballsy. Everyone's gonna hate that, so... I should definitely go with that."
James Owen Sullivan or The Reverend Tholomew Plague shortened as The Rev. Born in Huntington Beach, California February 9,1981. He got his first pair of drum stick at the age of four and his own drum set at eleven. Sullivan's signature ability which he called "the double-ride thing, just for lack of a better definition, because no one does it, is a technique that can be heard on tracks such as "Almost Easy", "Critical Acclaim", and "Crossroads" in which Sullivan doubles up at a fast tempo between the double bass and ride cymbals.
The Rev was also a vocalist, songwriter, and pianist for Avenged Sevenfold. His piano-playing can be heard on the tracks "Warmness on the Soul", "Seize the Day", "Fiction" and "Save Me".
Jimmy's body was found in his home on December 28, 2009 at the age of 28.His death was reported as due to natural causes. The results of the autopsy performed on December 30, 2009, however, were inconclusive.On June 9, 2010, the cause of death was revealed to have been an acute polydrug intoxication due to combined effects of oxycodone (OxyContin), oxymorphone (a metabolite of oxycodone), diazepam (Valium), nordiazepam (a metabolite of diazepam) and alcohol. Cardiomegaly (enlarged heart) was reported as a "significant condition" that may have played a role in the death.
On January 5, 2010, a private funeral was held for Sullivan, and a day later he was buried in Huntington Beach, California.Avenged Sevenfold dedicated their fifth album, Nightmare, to Jimmy.
So, that's it.
Cheers ♥
Avenged Sevenfold is an American heavymetal rock band, formed in Huntington Beach, California in 1999, first appeared as a metalcore band with first album Sounding the Seventh Trumpet but evolved into a hard rock/heavymetal in their third album and the following. The name was a reference to the Book of Genesis from The Bible, although they are not a religious band.
So, Matthew Charles Sanders, stage name M.Shadows, lead vocalist. Born in Huntington Beach, California July 31, 1981. Founder of Avenged Sevenfold and was the one who suggested the band name. He was in a Catholic school when he was younger, therefore making him familiar with the Bible and a lot of their songs and albums were titled from the pages of Bible. He played piano when he was younger but took interest on guitar and rock musics instead, although he is still capable of plating the piano now. Rumors began to spread that Shadows has lost his ability to scream since his throat surgery during Warped Tour 2003 because their records' vocal changed from heavy metalcore screaming into a much more defined vocal. But their producer put down those rumors by saying "When I met the band after Sounding the Seventh Trumpet...Matt handed me the CD, and he said to me, 'This record's screaming. The record we want to make...is going to be half-screaming and half-singing. I don't want to scream anymore...the record after that is going to be all singing.'".
Brian Elwin Haner, Jr better known as Synyster Gates or Syn, lead guitarist. Born in Huntington Beach, California July 7,1981. He studied at the Musicians Institute in Hollywood as part of the Guitar Institute of Technology program, studying jazz and classical guitar. After a year or so of being there, he got a phone call from The Rev asking him if he wanted to join his band, as lead guitarist. Brian joined rather than continuing his education and becoming a studio musician. Up until that time he was primarily self-taught by watching music videos and reading books. He won numerous awards for his epic guitar skills. I really really loved his smile, and his guitar skills always makes me melt.
Zachary James Baker or Zacky Vengeance, rhythm guitarist. Born in Huntington Beach, California December 11, 1981. He taught himself how to play guitar and said that he took on Vengeance as his stage name for getting back at the people from his youth who doubted his potential. He also came up with the stage name of Johnny Christ for Jonathan Seward and the abbreviation A7X. Despite playing the guitar left handed (he is ambidextrous), Vengeance recalls the first guitar he learned to play on was actually a right-handed his parents had bought him for his thirteenth birthday. He learned by playing upside-down, watching his favorite bands and other people he knew who played, and practiced as much as he could. He would also read each edition of Guitar World cover to cover, learning the tabs of the songs published there and watching the professionals perform them until he could play just as well. He had a clothing line called Vengeance University and he has gorgeous eyes! It's a mixture of colors and it's just ... well, awesome.
Jonathan Lewis Seward, or Johnny Christ. Born in Huntington Beach, California November 18 1984. Johnny could pick up on the pace of a song that he did not know quite quickly and proved to be a very unique bass guitarist. "I don't think any one out there could pick up a bass line as quick as Johnny" were the words from The Rev. About the Christ in his name he said "That sounds... really ballsy. Everyone's gonna hate that, so... I should definitely go with that."
James Owen Sullivan or The Reverend Tholomew Plague shortened as The Rev. Born in Huntington Beach, California February 9,1981. He got his first pair of drum stick at the age of four and his own drum set at eleven. Sullivan's signature ability which he called "the double-ride thing, just for lack of a better definition, because no one does it, is a technique that can be heard on tracks such as "Almost Easy", "Critical Acclaim", and "Crossroads" in which Sullivan doubles up at a fast tempo between the double bass and ride cymbals.
The Rev was also a vocalist, songwriter, and pianist for Avenged Sevenfold. His piano-playing can be heard on the tracks "Warmness on the Soul", "Seize the Day", "Fiction" and "Save Me".
Jimmy's body was found in his home on December 28, 2009 at the age of 28.His death was reported as due to natural causes. The results of the autopsy performed on December 30, 2009, however, were inconclusive.On June 9, 2010, the cause of death was revealed to have been an acute polydrug intoxication due to combined effects of oxycodone (OxyContin), oxymorphone (a metabolite of oxycodone), diazepam (Valium), nordiazepam (a metabolite of diazepam) and alcohol. Cardiomegaly (enlarged heart) was reported as a "significant condition" that may have played a role in the death.
On January 5, 2010, a private funeral was held for Sullivan, and a day later he was buried in Huntington Beach, California.Avenged Sevenfold dedicated their fifth album, Nightmare, to Jimmy.
So, that's it.
Cheers ♥
Grand Theft Autumn
I don't know why I almost always titled my post with song titles. Maybe I lacked the creativity to make decent title. Oh well.
Anyway! Today sucked as well. Late to school, almost 11 o'clock when I arrived. Took the test in ADM office and was unable to wroite down the answers to my friends. Have been regretting and feeling bad the whole time. Sorry, dudes :( Oh, you're all ladies, so dudettes? Haha. Anyway, sorry.
Spent time watching Cobus' drum covers again today. Have known him for a couple years already, loved him since I watched his cover of Avenged Sevenfold's Afterlife. EPICNESS! Watch the cover here
But was addicted to him a few days ago, when I watched his cover of 30 Seconds to Mars' Kings and Queens. Great song anyway, and he looks really cool there! The cover was made in Summa Hills, Canada. Check it out here
And also, re-watching videos of Avenged Sevenfold again. Their So Far Away song really rocks you know, I find it really applicable to my life. The lyrics showed how much the band has grown and matured from Jimmy's death, and their tribute to a bandmate, a bestfriend, a brother. Synyster Gates has really outdone himself with this song.
Okay, got to go.
Bye ♥
Anyway! Today sucked as well. Late to school, almost 11 o'clock when I arrived. Took the test in ADM office and was unable to wroite down the answers to my friends. Have been regretting and feeling bad the whole time. Sorry, dudes :( Oh, you're all ladies, so dudettes? Haha. Anyway, sorry.
Spent time watching Cobus' drum covers again today. Have known him for a couple years already, loved him since I watched his cover of Avenged Sevenfold's Afterlife. EPICNESS! Watch the cover here
But was addicted to him a few days ago, when I watched his cover of 30 Seconds to Mars' Kings and Queens. Great song anyway, and he looks really cool there! The cover was made in Summa Hills, Canada. Check it out here
And also, re-watching videos of Avenged Sevenfold again. Their So Far Away song really rocks you know, I find it really applicable to my life. The lyrics showed how much the band has grown and matured from Jimmy's death, and their tribute to a bandmate, a bestfriend, a brother. Synyster Gates has really outdone himself with this song.
Okay, got to go.
Bye ♥
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Progress and Regress
It's the second day of exam and it still sucks. Cloud over my head and it rained on the exam, so yeah, you know how that feels.
Okay, so in today's post I would like to talk about the progress we made and the regress.
You know, when I was a kid, I never thought that I need my parents. I always had a mindset that I can live alone without depending on them, I just need the money from them. It's a progress of mind, I think. For a kid, to think like an adult, an independent adult. I figured that way of thinking came from the bitterness in me, seeing as my parents seemingly love my brother more than me. I'd admit, I got treated unfairly when I was a kid. When I got a sixty or below scores, my father would yell and hit me, if my brother got that score, my parents would talk to him and give him another chance. If I got seventy, it would be a lot of yelling, my brother, nothing, like it's usual. If it's eighty, my father would say, "You didn't study did you? Only eighty? Just what the hell have you been doing all this time?". My brother? He got a praise, my father would say, "Keep it up, okay?"
Even ninety is never good enough for my father. He wanted straight hundreds for my report cards, and I always try to give him the very best of me. So I guess that set me the way I am now, always thriving for the best. My brother on the other hand, is really too laid back. I am very relaxed too before exam comes but when it came, I studied my brains out. Many people thought that I cheated for exam to get the scores I have, but really, people? I don't cheat. I never cheated during an exam, well except for tests held in classes. Those scores are purely my hard works.
So, back to the topic. Back then, I always thought that I don't need to depend on anyone to live my life. But then again, as we grow, mindset changes. As I grow up, I realize that my parents are getting older, weaker. And you know, when realization dawns on you that your parents won't always be able to be there for you, damn, that hurts. Back then I thought that my parents will always be there for me to turn to when I'm sad, or in a problem. But to realize that they can't, it's painful.
It's painful to think that one day when you get home, no one will be there waiting for you again, to cook for you, prepare everything, to see your scores, how you do at school. I always had this question in my mind before I sleep, "Will tomorrow be as good as today? Will I be able to see my parents and brother again tomorrow?" Right now, is the regress of the mind, you realize you actually can't live without them, I'm an adolescent, nearly an adult, thinking like a kid again. Not wanting to let go of today as we don't know what tomorrow woud bring.
But then, we have to learn to cope with the numbing pain. It'll grow dull and numb when time comes, but now, it's still fresh and it hurts. When you move on with your life again, it's a progress again.
Every time I see how much my parents have changed from when I'm a kid, a painful strike hit my heart. They did grow old, and one day, gosh, I don't want to think about it. Brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it.
Okay, I tend to ramble and will be reduced to a bundle of tears if I kept on writing. So, love your parents right and learn to cherish each and every day you had with them. It's precious.
TTFN ♥
Okay, so in today's post I would like to talk about the progress we made and the regress.
You know, when I was a kid, I never thought that I need my parents. I always had a mindset that I can live alone without depending on them, I just need the money from them. It's a progress of mind, I think. For a kid, to think like an adult, an independent adult. I figured that way of thinking came from the bitterness in me, seeing as my parents seemingly love my brother more than me. I'd admit, I got treated unfairly when I was a kid. When I got a sixty or below scores, my father would yell and hit me, if my brother got that score, my parents would talk to him and give him another chance. If I got seventy, it would be a lot of yelling, my brother, nothing, like it's usual. If it's eighty, my father would say, "You didn't study did you? Only eighty? Just what the hell have you been doing all this time?". My brother? He got a praise, my father would say, "Keep it up, okay?"
Even ninety is never good enough for my father. He wanted straight hundreds for my report cards, and I always try to give him the very best of me. So I guess that set me the way I am now, always thriving for the best. My brother on the other hand, is really too laid back. I am very relaxed too before exam comes but when it came, I studied my brains out. Many people thought that I cheated for exam to get the scores I have, but really, people? I don't cheat. I never cheated during an exam, well except for tests held in classes. Those scores are purely my hard works.
So, back to the topic. Back then, I always thought that I don't need to depend on anyone to live my life. But then again, as we grow, mindset changes. As I grow up, I realize that my parents are getting older, weaker. And you know, when realization dawns on you that your parents won't always be able to be there for you, damn, that hurts. Back then I thought that my parents will always be there for me to turn to when I'm sad, or in a problem. But to realize that they can't, it's painful.
It's painful to think that one day when you get home, no one will be there waiting for you again, to cook for you, prepare everything, to see your scores, how you do at school. I always had this question in my mind before I sleep, "Will tomorrow be as good as today? Will I be able to see my parents and brother again tomorrow?" Right now, is the regress of the mind, you realize you actually can't live without them, I'm an adolescent, nearly an adult, thinking like a kid again. Not wanting to let go of today as we don't know what tomorrow woud bring.
But then, we have to learn to cope with the numbing pain. It'll grow dull and numb when time comes, but now, it's still fresh and it hurts. When you move on with your life again, it's a progress again.
Every time I see how much my parents have changed from when I'm a kid, a painful strike hit my heart. They did grow old, and one day, gosh, I don't want to think about it. Brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it.
Okay, I tend to ramble and will be reduced to a bundle of tears if I kept on writing. So, love your parents right and learn to cherish each and every day you had with them. It's precious.
TTFN ♥
Darkness
Hi! It's first day of my last semester exam and it sucks. I don't know how many faults I made but I think it's a lot. Okay, and also, today I had no idea what the fucking hell just happened to im3's server cause ever since 11 pm my signal has been GSM and GSM. I wanted to check whether my monthly gaul has ended or not, so I dialed *889# and on the screen "Supplementary service error : System failure." One word, Fuck.
And I tried calling 100, it said "No circuit/channel available." Shit.
Urgh! So fucking pissed off. The urge to kill something is almost unbearable!
So I went to youtube, refreshing my mind.
On the brighter side, I found lots of great videos here.
Ray William Johnson just uploaded his newest video check him out guys! He's my favorite youtube comedian :D
Also, been looking at old videos of Avenged Sevenfold, the best band ever! Here's their channel right here
Watched them again and again. Cried again watching the So Far Away video. RIP The Rev, never forgotten foREVer :'( It's his death anniversary again soon, I always dreaded this day every year. Couldn't believe he's gone, man. So much talent wasted D:
Also, check out Cobus Potgieter's channel, he's hands down awesome! Really really should take a look at his videos, and for me, he's very good looking too ;;)
So anyway, I think that's all. Don't forget to subscribe to those three above.
Bye ♥
And I tried calling 100, it said "No circuit/channel available." Shit.
Urgh! So fucking pissed off. The urge to kill something is almost unbearable!
So I went to youtube, refreshing my mind.
On the brighter side, I found lots of great videos here.
Ray William Johnson just uploaded his newest video check him out guys! He's my favorite youtube comedian :D
Also, been looking at old videos of Avenged Sevenfold, the best band ever! Here's their channel right here
Watched them again and again. Cried again watching the So Far Away video. RIP The Rev, never forgotten foREVer :'( It's his death anniversary again soon, I always dreaded this day every year. Couldn't believe he's gone, man. So much talent wasted D:
Also, check out Cobus Potgieter's channel, he's hands down awesome! Really really should take a look at his videos, and for me, he's very good looking too ;;)
So anyway, I think that's all. Don't forget to subscribe to those three above.
Bye ♥
Friday, December 9, 2011
LOL
I bet it sucks to be you. Lol. You know honey, cowardice and bitchiness won't get you far in this world.
If I was in an argument with someone, never will I delete or remove them from my social network. I mean, gosh, we write things there for people to read, right? But I won't open their timeline/profile or whatever cause, what's the point? It's useless and a waste of time. But people have this curious side of them, they just have to know what people think of them. I don't. I don't give a damn because reading their tweets/statuses will make them even more pig-headed.
For me, I tweet, update and post whatever I want. Don't like, don't read. Well, I don't wake up everyday and made these accounts to impress you.
I will never ever lock my blog. It's open for public and if I want to write about someone, I will do it. It's my own rights cause it's my blog and well, you know how it works. I think, locking your blog, removing someone from your facebook or blocking someone from your twitter is an act of cowardice and it means you admit losing.
I won't. Have to much pride in me for that. Lol :D
Cheers ♥
If I was in an argument with someone, never will I delete or remove them from my social network. I mean, gosh, we write things there for people to read, right? But I won't open their timeline/profile or whatever cause, what's the point? It's useless and a waste of time. But people have this curious side of them, they just have to know what people think of them. I don't. I don't give a damn because reading their tweets/statuses will make them even more pig-headed.
For me, I tweet, update and post whatever I want. Don't like, don't read. Well, I don't wake up everyday and made these accounts to impress you.
I will never ever lock my blog. It's open for public and if I want to write about someone, I will do it. It's my own rights cause it's my blog and well, you know how it works. I think, locking your blog, removing someone from your facebook or blocking someone from your twitter is an act of cowardice and it means you admit losing.
I won't. Have to much pride in me for that. Lol :D
Cheers ♥
Unfair
Hi, just saw the news about an Indonesian scholar in Singapore stabbed to death while visiting his families in Jakarta, Indonesia.
I didn't know him but my feeling goes for him, his families and friends. Gone at such young age, it's just too sad. From what I read, he's a brilliant student, won a gold medal in Mathematics Olympic in Singapore. And also a formidable athlete, he also won gold in NAPFA.
For me, I don't know what happened that made him got stabbed like that, maybe it was robbery or whatever but really, those people are so brainless.
Deepest condolences, Christopher Melky Tanujaya. Rest in Peace there :)
Read the whole post Here
Sympathies ♥
I didn't know him but my feeling goes for him, his families and friends. Gone at such young age, it's just too sad. From what I read, he's a brilliant student, won a gold medal in Mathematics Olympic in Singapore. And also a formidable athlete, he also won gold in NAPFA.
For me, I don't know what happened that made him got stabbed like that, maybe it was robbery or whatever but really, those people are so brainless.
Deepest condolences, Christopher Melky Tanujaya. Rest in Peace there :)
Read the whole post Here
Sympathies ♥
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
Coins and Pennies
Hello! It’s a great great day. Today me and my friends did a concert on lunch break. We sang lots of songs, including Jay Chou’s, Eminem’s. It was ultimately hilarious and fun! I think our classmates rather liked our voices, or perhaps were too stunned to speak. Lol!
I am very grateful that I am still in the same class as them, and we got to be friends, you know. Friendship is really precious. Once severed can never be tied back together. And I love it, you know, being friends with these people, laughing all day, enjoying our times cause when it all ends, we knew we can never be like this again.
Me? Jealous of you? Ooh honey, bless your heart. And brain.
Did you know that many many people hated them? And trust me when I said many. Cause everywhere I go people would say, “Oh, you’re in the same class as her? Pity you! I really hate her you know. Her face looks like crap. And her friend too! That one who always act so kreak.”
Oh and please honey, don’t bring your outside attitude in, it’s so disgraceful. Please, save a little bit of what tiny bits of dignity you got left. You’re so cheap! I was wondering if you’re on an all seasons sale. Boys hate that. They like to feel dominant, like a sense of conquering a girl’s heart, not having a girl going all Spartan on them and chasing them everywhere.
TTFN ♥
Sunday, December 4, 2011
I Am The Best
I Am The Best by 2ne1 is really the best! Download ASAP. Here's the link I Am The Best
This is the English translation for the song :
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of a killer
alright
This body is second to no one
alright
You’re following behind me but
I’m only running forward
I jump on top of the table you’re sitting at
I don’t care
If you touch me you won’t be able to handle it
I’m hot hot hot hot fire
Before I flip something over
Please can someone stop me
I open my closet and
Put on the freshest outfit
The reflection of my face in the mirror
I carefully check it over
Right now it’s 8
I’m supposed to meet up at 8:30
Tonight I set out with bold steps
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of fabulous
alright
Even if you were me, you’d be envious of this body
alright
Guys are turning around to look at me
Girls are following me
Being looked down on in the spot
I’m sitting at, every day is tiring
Pretending to be an athlete, this snobby
Clumsy Playa
Like you’re a flat tire
I’ll dump you good for people to see
I refuse to be compared
I’m telling you the truth
If we’re talking about my value, I’m a
Billion dollar baby
People who know a thing or two
They all know it so ask them
Grab anyone and ask them
Who is the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god
This is the English translation for the song :
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of a killer
alright
This body is second to no one
alright
You’re following behind me but
I’m only running forward
I jump on top of the table you’re sitting at
I don’t care
If you touch me you won’t be able to handle it
I’m hot hot hot hot fire
Before I flip something over
Please can someone stop me
I open my closet and
Put on the freshest outfit
The reflection of my face in the mirror
I carefully check it over
Right now it’s 8
I’m supposed to meet up at 8:30
Tonight I set out with bold steps
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
I am the Best
Th-th-the Best
Whoever looks at me can see I’m kind of fabulous
alright
Even if you were me, you’d be envious of this body
alright
Guys are turning around to look at me
Girls are following me
Being looked down on in the spot
I’m sitting at, every day is tiring
Pretending to be an athlete, this snobby
Clumsy Playa
Like you’re a flat tire
I’ll dump you good for people to see
I refuse to be compared
I’m telling you the truth
If we’re talking about my value, I’m a
Billion dollar baby
People who know a thing or two
They all know it so ask them
Grab anyone and ask them
Who is the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
I am the best
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Who? You are better than me?
No no no no na na na na
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Bam Ratatata Tatatatata
Oh my god
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Heels for Hell
I'm craving for high heels! But I can't walk in one to save my life. I really envied those people who can walk so gracefully while in heels, cause it’s hard. Damn hard.
Reason I've never really worn heels before is probably because I'm pretty damn tall already and I'm, well you can say, ashamed. If I wear heels again, I’ll definitely tower everyone and wellllllll. Besides, it’s not comfy. Flats are comfy and more practical.
But recently, I saw many many many gorgeous heels and I was like, melting before them. I want themmmmmm so bad :(
There’s this girl from Manila, her heels collection is magnificent! Many different models of heels and she has great sense of fashion too, I really really envied her -.- I wanna be like her! A little bit. She had gorgeous curly hair, perfect figure, great style and last but not least, a vast collection of shoes.
I'm learning on how to walk in heels and had pretty much gotten a hang of it, although I still can't stand too long on them cos it hurts and I can't walk on stairs normally. Geez. Such a pain!
II wish we’re all born already knowing how to walk in heels. When I had a daughter, I'm gonna make sure she learned how to master walking in heels since she’s young. I just hope she isn’t as stubborn as I am =.=
Cherrios ♥
Happy Birthday Brother!
Happy birthday my beloved stupid sometimes annoying brother! May you be blessed with happiness, success and luck for everything you do in this year and the upcoming years—especially academically :D
I got no pictures today, internet connection sucks like hell. Not only the connection, but the modem too! It needs to be held upside down to function, like what the hell? So anyway, that’s the reason I haven’t been blogging this past few days ._.
My wishes for him are for him to break out of his nasty online game habit and for him to be a better person. Respect our mommy more and listen to her, even if she’s annoying and too talkative sometimes, she wants the best for us. Do well academically so that daddy will be happy. You know he loves it when he came home and we show him our great scores on the report card. Please, do your best so that mommy doesn’t have to go to school to take your report card home again.
And listen to me! Don’t be rebellious when I told you not to this and that this and that. Please be a little smarter, you’re way too naïve -.- Life isn’t like video games you know, it’s not that simple. You need to get rid of your toys and start putting on the big boy’s belt. Be responsible.
You know we love you. I love you! Even if I'm bitchy to you most of time when I’m PMS-ing or not :p Even if I spoke harsh words to you. I just want the best for you anyway. I want you to grow up and be a person we all want to see in the world :)
Last but not least, no girlfriends yet! I’m not ready to share you to anyone just yet :p
Okay, ending this cheesy post here.
Much love ♥
Friday, November 25, 2011
Brotherhood
So! I hate my brother.
I know I know, he's my brother how can I hate him? I usually love him, but in this moment, right now, I hate him more than anything. I loathe him, despise his every being.
I just want to rip that face out of his head. That's how much I hate him right now.
You see, there's time when I hope that he won't be able to pass this tenth grade. That'll he stay. It's not like I'm cruel or crazy or whatever but I really think that this is the last resort for him to finally reconsider his choices and start behaving. He's addicted. He's sick. I think he's like addicted to online games a wee bit too much. Sometimes I just wanna slap him straight, to let him regain consciousness over the reality. He need to get a hold of himself.
He's lied, he's manipulated just so that he can play that fucking game of his. I tried deleting the game, didn't work. He installed another one, which earned an earful of me. My father has always loved him more than me, you know the usual son get more love than daughter thingy. I don't mind. As long as it's not being unfair to me, I don't protest.
Which is what drives my brother to this state of craziness. My father wasn't hard enough on him ever since he's a kid like how my father has been to me. He was used to be spoiled and I'll admit, I was jealous and angry. Then one time, I lashed out on my parents for that and they somehow ceased the unfairness. I guess, honesty worked. Lol.
Anyway, any suggestion on how to manage my mad brother? Cause I'm surely out of ideas.
Cheers ♥
Madness
AAARGGHH!
Just got the news that Craig Colton was sent home in the newest X Factor's result show!
Are you crazy, Britain? This is Craig FREAKING Colton we're talking about! Geez. I had nothing against Amelia Lily, but I certainly have now. I hope you and Little Mix go home ASAP. You guys don't belong in this competition, baby dolls. I hate Tulisa Contostavlos so much, she's a bitch.
So disappointed and angry! Him, Misha B and Gary Barlow (budum budum) are the only reasons I watched The X Factor in the first place. Now with him home, I don't think I'll watch it anymore. So damn sad :'(
If Misha went home in the next result show, Britain and the judges better get their ears and eyes checked.
GRR!
I can't even believe he's in the bottom two, I mean he's so fucking talented! *sigh* *sniff*
Don't be sad, Craig. You have great voice, you're funny too, you'll go far in this industry, lad :)
By the way, I have just watched a show almost similar to The X Factor. It's called The Voice. Go watch it, it's great!
At first, I only watched it because one of the mentors is Adam Levine *wink wink* (What? He's hot!)
He really is. And he sings, play guitar, play drum, oohhhh his tattoos *melting*
For season 1, the show has already ended, but don't worry! There's still season 2 (More Adams coming)
It's really all great singer. There's this woman Beverly, oh my god! She's so awesome! She's got that really rocky voice, she's just ... great!
Anyway, got to go. Dinner calls :D
TTFN ♥
Just got the news that Craig Colton was sent home in the newest X Factor's result show!
Are you crazy, Britain? This is Craig FREAKING Colton we're talking about! Geez. I had nothing against Amelia Lily, but I certainly have now. I hope you and Little Mix go home ASAP. You guys don't belong in this competition, baby dolls. I hate Tulisa Contostavlos so much, she's a bitch.
So disappointed and angry! Him, Misha B and Gary Barlow (budum budum) are the only reasons I watched The X Factor in the first place. Now with him home, I don't think I'll watch it anymore. So damn sad :'(
If Misha went home in the next result show, Britain and the judges better get their ears and eyes checked.
GRR!
I can't even believe he's in the bottom two, I mean he's so fucking talented! *sigh* *sniff*
Don't be sad, Craig. You have great voice, you're funny too, you'll go far in this industry, lad :)
By the way, I have just watched a show almost similar to The X Factor. It's called The Voice. Go watch it, it's great!
At first, I only watched it because one of the mentors is Adam Levine *wink wink* (What? He's hot!)
He really is. And he sings, play guitar, play drum, oohhhh his tattoos *melting*
For season 1, the show has already ended, but don't worry! There's still season 2 (More Adams coming)
It's really all great singer. There's this woman Beverly, oh my god! She's so awesome! She's got that really rocky voice, she's just ... great!
Anyway, got to go. Dinner calls :D
TTFN ♥
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Back
Anyway, more on friendships.
As I mentioned on my previous post, my bestfriends are back together. I honestly don't think they'll be able to keep away from each other for a long time since they're crazy and insensitive people. And it's really good to see them back together again, sharing internal jokes, all those fun things.
A week ago, I had this one friend that I felt was pushed away from her group. I felt somehow guilty since I had a feeling that it has something to do with the blog problems. But I'm not sure.
So when Acek moved me to seat beside her, I asked and she told me. Well, now I feel really guilty. So it is about us. She didn't want to take a side, she just want to befriend everyone else. She wanted to be able to sit in the back of the class and laugh with us, sit in front and laugh with the others not just stuck in the little cycle of friends. But apparently, her goodwill wasn't accepted nicely by some people and it's just sad you know. You two are friends! I hope they'll be able to be good again. Frankly, I had no problem with the two of them, so if they wanna be friends with me, I'm fine, if they don't then it's not my problem.
I only dislike the one I had problems with, not their friends. It's none of my business and never will be.
Ah well, I hope they'll be fine.
But from what I see, this girl looks fine without them, so it's all good. Losing a friend isn't awesome you know.
Lol.
There's always misunderstanding and little quarrels between friends and it's normal! But don't be unsupportive of each other's opinions and actions. It's their own life and their own decisions.
Respect others so that others can respect you.
TTYL ♥
As I mentioned on my previous post, my bestfriends are back together. I honestly don't think they'll be able to keep away from each other for a long time since they're crazy and insensitive people. And it's really good to see them back together again, sharing internal jokes, all those fun things.
A week ago, I had this one friend that I felt was pushed away from her group. I felt somehow guilty since I had a feeling that it has something to do with the blog problems. But I'm not sure.
So when Acek moved me to seat beside her, I asked and she told me. Well, now I feel really guilty. So it is about us. She didn't want to take a side, she just want to befriend everyone else. She wanted to be able to sit in the back of the class and laugh with us, sit in front and laugh with the others not just stuck in the little cycle of friends. But apparently, her goodwill wasn't accepted nicely by some people and it's just sad you know. You two are friends! I hope they'll be able to be good again. Frankly, I had no problem with the two of them, so if they wanna be friends with me, I'm fine, if they don't then it's not my problem.
I only dislike the one I had problems with, not their friends. It's none of my business and never will be.
Ah well, I hope they'll be fine.
But from what I see, this girl looks fine without them, so it's all good. Losing a friend isn't awesome you know.
Lol.
There's always misunderstanding and little quarrels between friends and it's normal! But don't be unsupportive of each other's opinions and actions. It's their own life and their own decisions.
Respect others so that others can respect you.
TTYL ♥
Rolling In The Deep
Hi! Well, first off, my bestfriends are back together again! Yay!
It feels good to finally be together, you know just have fun, loved it very very much. You know, remembering that we only had such short amount of time left to enjoy the very last minute of our high school days is frustrating. I hope to be able to rewind it all, back to the time when I first stepped in Senior High School. Been going to Sutomo all my life, and now leaving it just doesn't feel right. It's just something that's been bugging me everyday.
I know that when I grew up, I'll really miss high school. The drama, the love, the hatred, the friendships. Ah.
By the way, I cried listening to this song : Graduation - Vitamin C
It was so right! Spot on! So touching and real. It is exactly what we'll be thinking about when we were adult.
We'll be missing high school and the friends. Ah, it's so hard to leave all of these behind you know :(
I really love these moments.
Later ♥
It feels good to finally be together, you know just have fun, loved it very very much. You know, remembering that we only had such short amount of time left to enjoy the very last minute of our high school days is frustrating. I hope to be able to rewind it all, back to the time when I first stepped in Senior High School. Been going to Sutomo all my life, and now leaving it just doesn't feel right. It's just something that's been bugging me everyday.
I know that when I grew up, I'll really miss high school. The drama, the love, the hatred, the friendships. Ah.
By the way, I cried listening to this song : Graduation - Vitamin C
It was so right! Spot on! So touching and real. It is exactly what we'll be thinking about when we were adult.
We'll be missing high school and the friends. Ah, it's so hard to leave all of these behind you know :(
I really love these moments.
Later ♥
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
From The Inside
Anyone familiar with the term bestfriends? Everyone had that one friend who understands them, supports them. I have a few too and I feel totally blessed.
The thing is, it's hard to differentiate bestfriends and fake friends. Those fake friends act like they were your bestest friends ever then they stab you in the back. I've seen lots of them, even experienced a few. I know how they're like.
For me, having a bestfriend is like having someone you can talk to about anything, the one you knew would never judge you, would never let you fall on your own, someone you can go insane with. But some people misunderstood the concept of supporting your bestfriend. Sure, as a friend, you can never let your friends fall on their own. You help them back up and move along. But what if they're the one at fault? What if they're the guilty ones? Should you just forget about who's right or wrong and just blindly support your bestfriends?
NO. Being bestfriends doesn't mean that you have to forget about your self-righteousness, your needs and your feelings. You don't need to follow your friends everywhere like a loyal puppy just because you guys are bestfriends. You don't need to put your feelings aside just because your bestfriends don't think the same way. You don't need to be hostile to everyone who isn't in your little cycle of friends. And more importantly you don't have to support and make decisions for your bestfriends all the time!
But I didn't mean to make it seem like when your bestfriend is guilty and she's down because of it, you just leave her. No. You stay by her side, lift her up and lead her to do the right thing. Apologize. Sincerely, from the heart.You don't make her do something that will worsen the situation! Honey, that's just mean.
As a person, you have the right to be neutral in every situation. You don't have to always join in the fray and take a side, especially if it's not your problem. And if your other friends hate you for being neutral, then leave them. They're not friends, they're fakers. A good friend will accept your decision good-heartedly not judge you as untrue and unloyal.
There's still many fish in the sea, you can still find another bestfriend, someone who will accept you for who you are, your decisions and actions.
Also, if you started feeling uncomfortable of your friends' actions or behavior, talk to them right away. Don't procrastinate or worse, you tell your other bestfriends about it and you lot gossip behind their backs. You can tell your other friends but tell them not to judge. Just ask for the opinion and decide on the right time to talk.
That's all from me today :D
Cheerios ♥
The thing is, it's hard to differentiate bestfriends and fake friends. Those fake friends act like they were your bestest friends ever then they stab you in the back. I've seen lots of them, even experienced a few. I know how they're like.
For me, having a bestfriend is like having someone you can talk to about anything, the one you knew would never judge you, would never let you fall on your own, someone you can go insane with. But some people misunderstood the concept of supporting your bestfriend. Sure, as a friend, you can never let your friends fall on their own. You help them back up and move along. But what if they're the one at fault? What if they're the guilty ones? Should you just forget about who's right or wrong and just blindly support your bestfriends?
NO. Being bestfriends doesn't mean that you have to forget about your self-righteousness, your needs and your feelings. You don't need to follow your friends everywhere like a loyal puppy just because you guys are bestfriends. You don't need to put your feelings aside just because your bestfriends don't think the same way. You don't need to be hostile to everyone who isn't in your little cycle of friends. And more importantly you don't have to support and make decisions for your bestfriends all the time!
But I didn't mean to make it seem like when your bestfriend is guilty and she's down because of it, you just leave her. No. You stay by her side, lift her up and lead her to do the right thing. Apologize. Sincerely, from the heart.You don't make her do something that will worsen the situation! Honey, that's just mean.
As a person, you have the right to be neutral in every situation. You don't have to always join in the fray and take a side, especially if it's not your problem. And if your other friends hate you for being neutral, then leave them. They're not friends, they're fakers. A good friend will accept your decision good-heartedly not judge you as untrue and unloyal.
There's still many fish in the sea, you can still find another bestfriend, someone who will accept you for who you are, your decisions and actions.
Also, if you started feeling uncomfortable of your friends' actions or behavior, talk to them right away. Don't procrastinate or worse, you tell your other bestfriends about it and you lot gossip behind their backs. You can tell your other friends but tell them not to judge. Just ask for the opinion and decide on the right time to talk.
That's all from me today :D
Cheerios ♥
Breakeven
Today I felt like shit. I woke up with a pounding head and later on stomachache, been feeling low all day. But I'm better now after taking a long nap which is a shame because I actually expected to be sick so that I don't need to go to school. Lol.
We played a game (again) in Miss Yeni's lesson where we have to throw a paper ball into the dustbin successfully. If we did then one ball scored 100, I tried and failed. I had no control whatsoever -.-
Oh whatever.
By the way, have any of you seen TOP's pictures for Bazaar? Sizzling hot!
I hated people who smoke but for him I'll definitely make an exception ♥
Tabi's too perfect! He's tall, nice body, sexy voice and smoking hot. Aww, I can feel myself literally melting already.
I am too loud. Too harsh. Too ungirly.
I'm disappointed that I, up until now still failed to change. Oh well *sigh*
My besties are having a fallout and it seems like there's nothing I can do to avoid it. I think it's just because they go to different classes. It sets a distance between them.
For me, I actually have no problems with any of them maybe because we're used to not being in the same class so petty arguments are rare. I figured it's just a common misunderstanding and miscommunication but for them it's a whole another problem -__-
I hope they'll be good again soon, honestly, we haven't spent much time together again nowadays. I've been busy and they have too.
I'll try talking to them again tomorrow :)
Cheers ♥
We played a game (again) in Miss Yeni's lesson where we have to throw a paper ball into the dustbin successfully. If we did then one ball scored 100, I tried and failed. I had no control whatsoever -.-
Oh whatever.
By the way, have any of you seen TOP's pictures for Bazaar? Sizzling hot!
I hated people who smoke but for him I'll definitely make an exception ♥
Tabi's too perfect! He's tall, nice body, sexy voice and smoking hot. Aww, I can feel myself literally melting already.
I am too loud. Too harsh. Too ungirly.
I'm disappointed that I, up until now still failed to change. Oh well *sigh*
My besties are having a fallout and it seems like there's nothing I can do to avoid it. I think it's just because they go to different classes. It sets a distance between them.
For me, I actually have no problems with any of them maybe because we're used to not being in the same class so petty arguments are rare. I figured it's just a common misunderstanding and miscommunication but for them it's a whole another problem -__-
I hope they'll be good again soon, honestly, we haven't spent much time together again nowadays. I've been busy and they have too.
I'll try talking to them again tomorrow :)
Cheers ♥
Friday, November 11, 2011
Masquerade
I'm a firm believer of what you see is what you get. But I think I need to get the facts straight because really, you can't rely on appearances alone, even if it really does matters.
That's why I'm somehow shocked that someone who looked like that can really do those kinds of things. The lesson I get is that friends really do matter. They define you, aside from your appearances. Who you are friends with determine how people see your personalities, even if you are not really like that.
There are many people who mastered two faces at once here, and it's really cruel, those faces. They look like one at a time and just as quick as blinking they turn faces. Masks are also quite common around here. Get used to it, they'll be many more to come as you move forward in this life.
And honey, no matter how pretty the mask is, it can't hide the ugliness you have. People can still smell your stink :)
By the way, I have encountered many people like that and honey, they don't last long. There is one an ex-friend, people say there is no ex-friend but I got one. She's been destroying friendships all over and now no more friendship for her, lol. Seriously, people hate her and the only ones who don't are her so-called friends. They even hate each other inside their little circle of friendship. I can't say I'm happy but frankly she deserves it, yeah that's how much I hate her.
So yeah, that's all :)
TTFN ♥
That's why I'm somehow shocked that someone who looked like that can really do those kinds of things. The lesson I get is that friends really do matter. They define you, aside from your appearances. Who you are friends with determine how people see your personalities, even if you are not really like that.
There are many people who mastered two faces at once here, and it's really cruel, those faces. They look like one at a time and just as quick as blinking they turn faces. Masks are also quite common around here. Get used to it, they'll be many more to come as you move forward in this life.
And honey, no matter how pretty the mask is, it can't hide the ugliness you have. People can still smell your stink :)
By the way, I have encountered many people like that and honey, they don't last long. There is one an ex-friend, people say there is no ex-friend but I got one. She's been destroying friendships all over and now no more friendship for her, lol. Seriously, people hate her and the only ones who don't are her so-called friends. They even hate each other inside their little circle of friendship. I can't say I'm happy but frankly she deserves it, yeah that's how much I hate her.
So yeah, that's all :)
TTFN ♥
Jar of Hearts
Watched Real Steel today with the peers, it was so cool! Definitely a must watch, guys!
The storyline is somehow predictable but still, awesome actions and Hugh Jackman is definitely a total hottie. And the kid is also so cute! Great movie, really good :)
For me, the most memorable scenes of the movie are when Charlie (Hugh Jackman) took over the fifth round of Atom vs Zeus and when he took off his shirt *countingabs* *drool*
And also today I kinda realized how very ungirl like I am -.- I laugh and talk way too loud and it's embarassing. And the way I talk is so harsh and unfeminine D:
I am seriously thinking of changing, but I don't know how. I am very incapable of changing and frankly, I hate changes But changes are essential in life, and I'm gonna treat this as a challenge to myself.
Wish me luck!
Much love ♥
The storyline is somehow predictable but still, awesome actions and Hugh Jackman is definitely a total hottie. And the kid is also so cute! Great movie, really good :)
For me, the most memorable scenes of the movie are when Charlie (Hugh Jackman) took over the fifth round of Atom vs Zeus and when he took off his shirt *countingabs* *drool*
And also today I kinda realized how very ungirl like I am -.- I laugh and talk way too loud and it's embarassing. And the way I talk is so harsh and unfeminine D:
I am seriously thinking of changing, but I don't know how. I am very incapable of changing and frankly, I hate changes But changes are essential in life, and I'm gonna treat this as a challenge to myself.
Wish me luck!
Much love ♥
Monday, November 7, 2011
Dum Dum Dum
Why hello!
I went to a presentation about NUS earlier today. So many Science students, and all from plus class too =.=
The representative they chose to talk kept on saying "The thing is ..." over and over again. I think that's the only thing I remembered of his whole speech is "The thing is ...". 'Cause the thing is (LOL), I do plan on applying there but my parents won't allow me too. And also the female one of the group, I think her view of students consisted of only Science students and common students.
Social students is so discriminated from Science ones, it's starting to piss me off!
Oh and anyway, I think my blog has become quite popular these days. People stalking my blog to see what I wrote \m/
And they feel disturbed by my posts, so they asked me to remove my posts.
No way! This is my blog and the point of making a blog is freedom to write about your thoughts, opinions and whatever you wanna write about.
I'm gonna make this perfectly clear : I am not deleting any post of this blog and I am going to write about whoever, whatever, and whenever I desire.
If you feel disturbed, then don't read it. If you feel that my post is talking about you, then please highlight a post where I said your name. Because I do not write names on my blog, so it may be you or you or you or her or him or they, and frankly, you have no rights at all to ask me to remove these posts as it is my blog. So, you can either suck it up or just don't read at all.
I am not gonna lock my blog just because of this because everyone has internet connection and you can chose whether you want or not to read something, it's just a matter of your choice.
That's all! I hope I made it crystal clear enough :)
TTFN ♥
I went to a presentation about NUS earlier today. So many Science students, and all from plus class too =.=
The representative they chose to talk kept on saying "The thing is ..." over and over again. I think that's the only thing I remembered of his whole speech is "The thing is ...". 'Cause the thing is (LOL), I do plan on applying there but my parents won't allow me too. And also the female one of the group, I think her view of students consisted of only Science students and common students.
Social students is so discriminated from Science ones, it's starting to piss me off!
Oh and anyway, I think my blog has become quite popular these days. People stalking my blog to see what I wrote \m/
And they feel disturbed by my posts, so they asked me to remove my posts.
No way! This is my blog and the point of making a blog is freedom to write about your thoughts, opinions and whatever you wanna write about.
I'm gonna make this perfectly clear : I am not deleting any post of this blog and I am going to write about whoever, whatever, and whenever I desire.
If you feel disturbed, then don't read it. If you feel that my post is talking about you, then please highlight a post where I said your name. Because I do not write names on my blog, so it may be you or you or you or her or him or they, and frankly, you have no rights at all to ask me to remove these posts as it is my blog. So, you can either suck it up or just don't read at all.
I am not gonna lock my blog just because of this because everyone has internet connection and you can chose whether you want or not to read something, it's just a matter of your choice.
That's all! I hope I made it crystal clear enough :)
TTFN ♥
Saturday, November 5, 2011
For What It's Worth
Hello. It's a good day except for the raining -_- Don't get me wrong, I love rains but not on day time. It makes me even lazier than before.
Okay, so have you ever felt like wanting to be another person? A completely different person than who you are right now? I have.
There's that time with my ex, even if he did love me, but just being with him makes me feel so insecure. Maybe it's because I loved him so much that I wanted to be better to keep him around. Maybe I'm afraid that he'd left me when he found someone better. Oh, those detestable times.
Did you realize that when you fell in love, and every girl around that boy seems a lot prettier than reality? But when it all ends, you realize how stupid you've been. That's when you needed someone to wake you up and show you that you stand a chance against those girls :)
Oh well, back to topic. I often wish to be prettier, slimmer, smarter, nicer, and all that stuff. But then I kinda figured that I feel content as to how I am now, there's a lot of girls out there with similar problems and with worse situations, so I should be grateful.
I am now. My only wish is for my hair. Sometimes I'm so frustrated with my hair, it never goes the way I wanted it too!
I envied people with those thick long hair, cause my hair used to be that way when I was a child but after I cut it short, it became this way, thin and hard to grow :(
I wanted to be braver, I don't know why but ever since I'm a kid, I don't react well with challenges or something that breaks me out of my normal habit. So I wanna be braver and challenge new things in life. Wish me luck :D
Speaking of bravery, that girl apologized to my friend earlier today. I praised her for her bravery to actually come forward and apologize even if it's a forced one. We kinda know that she only apologized because she wanted to stop the teasing and mockery, oh well, whatever.
I was sitting beside her at that time and when my friend didn't accept the apology, I heard this girl mutter, "Even after I told her sorry ..."
I don't really understand the meaning of those words but her tone seemed like she was annoyed because my friend didn't accept the apology. I'm not telling my friend, she'll get angrier. Besides, perhaps it's not what I thought she meant. I hope so :)
My wish for her is that she breaks out of her bad habit to write people that did wrong to her in her blog or facebook, learn something from the experience. But I heard that she's a stubborn one so maybe she won't since she locked her blog already.
But remember as you wrote in your own post, Karma is a bitch. What comes around goes around, that's just it. Even if people doesn't know about it now, they'll do eventually.
And it applied to real life too. You see that the posts you wrote a couple months back can really come forward and lead you to destruction. It's like a ticking time bomb, isn't it?
Off ♥
Okay, so have you ever felt like wanting to be another person? A completely different person than who you are right now? I have.
There's that time with my ex, even if he did love me, but just being with him makes me feel so insecure. Maybe it's because I loved him so much that I wanted to be better to keep him around. Maybe I'm afraid that he'd left me when he found someone better. Oh, those detestable times.
Did you realize that when you fell in love, and every girl around that boy seems a lot prettier than reality? But when it all ends, you realize how stupid you've been. That's when you needed someone to wake you up and show you that you stand a chance against those girls :)
Oh well, back to topic. I often wish to be prettier, slimmer, smarter, nicer, and all that stuff. But then I kinda figured that I feel content as to how I am now, there's a lot of girls out there with similar problems and with worse situations, so I should be grateful.
I am now. My only wish is for my hair. Sometimes I'm so frustrated with my hair, it never goes the way I wanted it too!
I envied people with those thick long hair, cause my hair used to be that way when I was a child but after I cut it short, it became this way, thin and hard to grow :(
I wanted to be braver, I don't know why but ever since I'm a kid, I don't react well with challenges or something that breaks me out of my normal habit. So I wanna be braver and challenge new things in life. Wish me luck :D
Speaking of bravery, that girl apologized to my friend earlier today. I praised her for her bravery to actually come forward and apologize even if it's a forced one. We kinda know that she only apologized because she wanted to stop the teasing and mockery, oh well, whatever.
I was sitting beside her at that time and when my friend didn't accept the apology, I heard this girl mutter, "Even after I told her sorry ..."
I don't really understand the meaning of those words but her tone seemed like she was annoyed because my friend didn't accept the apology. I'm not telling my friend, she'll get angrier. Besides, perhaps it's not what I thought she meant. I hope so :)
My wish for her is that she breaks out of her bad habit to write people that did wrong to her in her blog or facebook, learn something from the experience. But I heard that she's a stubborn one so maybe she won't since she locked her blog already.
But remember as you wrote in your own post, Karma is a bitch. What comes around goes around, that's just it. Even if people doesn't know about it now, they'll do eventually.
It's a lovely quote from Gossip Girl, my favorite show ever. It has great quotes, hot guys, very nice plot twists, fantastic high-end fashion, beautiful women, and so on and so on."The past is always with us, just waiting to mess with the present and when it does, it usually bites you in the ass." Gossip Girl
And it applied to real life too. You see that the posts you wrote a couple months back can really come forward and lead you to destruction. It's like a ticking time bomb, isn't it?
Off ♥
Friday, November 4, 2011
Apology
With this post, I'd like to apologize to my friend Hardiansyah aka Achen. Well, he's kinda close to me and we talked about a lot of things. I'm pleasantly surprised that he was able to handle my constant rambling and talkativeness.
And I am truly sorry for whatever trouble and guilt my sometimes way too harsh nature has caused him. I know he's guilty because of what happened and I think he regretted ever showing that post to me cause he's a peaceful person by heart and now he's hated by them. Me, personally I don't mind if they hate me cause honey, I hate them too. But Achen is somehow innocent, so yeah, I've been feeling guilty.
And when me and my friend got into cold war, I kinda dragged him in. I'm sorry Achen. I'm really happy and relieved that he acted normally to you now :)
So, thanks for being my friend and putting up with my shit.
Sincerely ♥
And I am truly sorry for whatever trouble and guilt my sometimes way too harsh nature has caused him. I know he's guilty because of what happened and I think he regretted ever showing that post to me cause he's a peaceful person by heart and now he's hated by them. Me, personally I don't mind if they hate me cause honey, I hate them too. But Achen is somehow innocent, so yeah, I've been feeling guilty.
And when me and my friend got into cold war, I kinda dragged him in. I'm sorry Achen. I'm really happy and relieved that he acted normally to you now :)
So, thanks for being my friend and putting up with my shit.
Sincerely ♥
Reversal
Hiya! Me and Achen went to see Johnny English Reborn today, totally loved it!
Rowan Atkinson is so talented, absolutely RECOMMENDED!
And also, today was a constant teasing day. The girl I have been mentioning in my earlier posts was practically teased and mocked throughout the day by the peers.
Well, I did join in a couple, but my friends got it all on their hands. Lol. When we were mocking her about Karma in Sir Sundram's lesson, her desk mate kept on glaring our way. See something you like darling? Take a picture, it'll last longer :)
Well, I heard that she cried on Acek's period so I took a quick glance to check, and it's true, she was. But I saw her holding a novel so she might be crying because of the book. Eh, who cares?
And I have a feeling that something either terrible or horrible will be happening tomorrow. And yes, I know both of them have the same meaning.
Put on your seatbelt guys! We're approaching the rollercoaster ride of your life now. Lmao =D
I heard people saying that she cried because of the constant teasing and mocking, so me and Achen feel a little guilty. But for me, fortunately the feeling kinda vanished when I saw her walking into the class after a bathroom break with such arrogant look on her face -.-
Well, if I were you honey, I'd only had that second post posted after I'm a hundred percent sure I'll be able to handle whatever they throw at me and fight back. If I don't, I won't.
Seriously I was thinking about telling my friend to just let it go after I saw her deleting her condescending post. But then she posted another degrading post about my friend. When I saw it, I was like "Oh, no you didn't!"
So stupid and naive. Really shouldn't have done that.
Oh well, you did what you think was right and enjoy :D
Bye ♥
Rowan Atkinson is so talented, absolutely RECOMMENDED!
And also, today was a constant teasing day. The girl I have been mentioning in my earlier posts was practically teased and mocked throughout the day by the peers.
Well, I did join in a couple, but my friends got it all on their hands. Lol. When we were mocking her about Karma in Sir Sundram's lesson, her desk mate kept on glaring our way. See something you like darling? Take a picture, it'll last longer :)
Well, I heard that she cried on Acek's period so I took a quick glance to check, and it's true, she was. But I saw her holding a novel so she might be crying because of the book. Eh, who cares?
And I have a feeling that something either terrible or horrible will be happening tomorrow. And yes, I know both of them have the same meaning.
Put on your seatbelt guys! We're approaching the rollercoaster ride of your life now. Lmao =D
I heard people saying that she cried because of the constant teasing and mocking, so me and Achen feel a little guilty. But for me, fortunately the feeling kinda vanished when I saw her walking into the class after a bathroom break with such arrogant look on her face -.-
Well, if I were you honey, I'd only had that second post posted after I'm a hundred percent sure I'll be able to handle whatever they throw at me and fight back. If I don't, I won't.
Seriously I was thinking about telling my friend to just let it go after I saw her deleting her condescending post. But then she posted another degrading post about my friend. When I saw it, I was like "Oh, no you didn't!"
So stupid and naive. Really shouldn't have done that.
Oh well, you did what you think was right and enjoy :D
Bye ♥
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Cute, Isn't it?
Aw, honey. What you said effectively worked on yourself too. If you said that my friend deserved what you wrote about her then don't you think you do too?
I won't talk about Karma if I were you, darling. You wrote the post, you got what you deserve. Seriously, did you really think that no one will be furious if you wrote about her in a blog?
It's funny how you talk like a saint but act like a sinner. Trying to look innocent? We all know how you really is.
Anyway, if you really think you did no wrong then why did you delete your blog post and didn't retaliate?
Don't answer me with noble answers like because she isn't worthy or blablabla, we all know you are far from that. Cause the truth is you're scared, baby.
And did you know? Revenge is best served cold, sweetheart.
You may act like nothing happened, but everyone knew what had happened and why. Your reputation is forever severed because of your rash attitude. And just so you know, not only people in our class know, but outside too since there were some people coming to our class when the incident happened.
Don't blame people for what you get, you should've seen it coming when you wrote the post. It's not like people disliked you before, but they do now.
And did you know? Half of the class know what happened and they blamed you for it. Even the person whom you thought was your friend. Notice that I used past tense? :)
We get that you might be angry because of what she said and it's her fault, but you should've tell her in person. She'll even apologize. But your fatal faults are that you take it up on a blog post and that you didn't take a glance at a mirror before you wrote it.
Maybe you're too sensitive, maybe she's too insensitive. But that doesn't change the fact that you've made a huge mistake by posting that blog post.
So honey, if I were you, I'd mule it in my head again before I decided to act like nothing happened. No one is gonna look at you with the same eyes anymore. Believe in me, you'll spent times crying in your shoes after this.
Love ♥
I won't talk about Karma if I were you, darling. You wrote the post, you got what you deserve. Seriously, did you really think that no one will be furious if you wrote about her in a blog?
It's funny how you talk like a saint but act like a sinner. Trying to look innocent? We all know how you really is.
Anyway, if you really think you did no wrong then why did you delete your blog post and didn't retaliate?
Don't answer me with noble answers like because she isn't worthy or blablabla, we all know you are far from that. Cause the truth is you're scared, baby.
And did you know? Revenge is best served cold, sweetheart.
You may act like nothing happened, but everyone knew what had happened and why. Your reputation is forever severed because of your rash attitude. And just so you know, not only people in our class know, but outside too since there were some people coming to our class when the incident happened.
Don't blame people for what you get, you should've seen it coming when you wrote the post. It's not like people disliked you before, but they do now.
And did you know? Half of the class know what happened and they blamed you for it. Even the person whom you thought was your friend. Notice that I used past tense? :)
We get that you might be angry because of what she said and it's her fault, but you should've tell her in person. She'll even apologize. But your fatal faults are that you take it up on a blog post and that you didn't take a glance at a mirror before you wrote it.
Maybe you're too sensitive, maybe she's too insensitive. But that doesn't change the fact that you've made a huge mistake by posting that blog post.
So honey, if I were you, I'd mule it in my head again before I decided to act like nothing happened. No one is gonna look at you with the same eyes anymore. Believe in me, you'll spent times crying in your shoes after this.
Love ♥
This Is Us
Today, my friends got me a surprise.
Thank you so much for everything :D Here are some pictures
Thank you so much for everything :D Here are some pictures
Lips Like Sugar
I started playing God Eater : Burst not long ago and already addicted to it. It's really awesome, recommended!
Also, remember the girl I talked about in my earlier post?
Her post angered me, I can't believe that someone who looked so nice, so kind is able to write a post like that. I mean if you don't like the way she insulted the names you made, then just take it up to her face. Geez.
I have been weighing all day whether to tell my friend or not, there's pros and cons really. I can't not tell her, she's my friend, when someone says bad things about her, I can't just shut up, keep it in my heart and pretend I know nothing! But if I tell her, then she's gonna blow up, literally. And our class will be a lot less friendlier.
In the end, I made a decision. If she asks me about what I meant by my tweet yesterday, I'll tell her. If she doesn't, I'll keep it.
When I sat beside her, she asked. So I told her.
And true, she was so angry, she yelled to that girl in class. And when showed to Ferdy, he got mad as well.
A deadly combination, those two.
A friend of mine who told me about the post was so guilty. I think he regretted ever showing to me that post.
Well, sorry. I tend to blow over when shown those kind of things.
Truthfully, I'm not guilty, although it is a pitiful sight. But you reap what you sow.
You said that she got into trouble because of her uncontrollable words in social network, well, look at what you've done. You said she needed to watch her mouth, now you have to watch your mouth and your back.
Be responsible. If you don't want to be publicly humiliated, then don't post those words to the internet.
Or maybe, you should find an imaginary enemy that doesn't have a friend with connection to the internet.
I don't mind being hated. Hate me or love me, it's still an obsession. I understood you hate me because you want to be like me, I’m used to being envied, love.
Signing off ♥
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